Dear Diary,
Today was fun, i had good time with family… I realized being busy with your own life let you be away from your best friends.. and this is maybe why Nora went away.. but I remember i was always there asking so it’s not an excuse I’m still trying to figure things out ..why she’s doing this .. it’s very weird, but I don’t care at all or maybe i do as she was very close to my heart.
I’m angry of myself l, as I didn’t stuck to what I said… I’m not running behind anyone anymore but i did … we had a small fight, professional one but then he got super angry for me being me I tried my best to know why ! What did i do wrong this time and he was not speaking to me at all, he was sad …then as always I tried to break his anger which I shouldn’t do ..
There’s a lot of nice things i do now and i want to stop and then i will miss it
Why we need to change who we are !! Why we don’t get what we deserve!
He didn’t even speak to me after, he was clod, busy … i was pushy
I need to not change my mind … we are not good to each other… at least that’s clear.
I hate myself with him, I’m different it’s not me … what i do doesn’t make me happy at all .. he’s supportive, nice guy but still not good to me.
Sometime reality hard to hear… I believe he sees me in the same way too.
I love him, i love him a lot … i can not see him sad i want to see him smiling all the time but at same time I don’t want to make him smile by giving my soul to evils.
You know what I promise
I will let my self first always
I will love myself more then anyone
I deserve to have a respect
Good life
True one
Life works with my mindset
See you guys tomorrow