hii,
yes. i am wrong.
i have many aunties from my mom side and dad side. but, my mom's side aunties have very limited thinking pattern.
they dont know about things that happen in now. they r very out dated. but, they used to love me, care about me, buy me fancy things WHEN I WAS VERY SMALL. right now i experience some bad actions against me by them. i dont know whether they r jealous on me, or they hate me or anything cuz im not like them. im very good at anything even qualities, educational levels, my attitudes, my mindset, my look, my styles and anything.i can do things by myself. they have kids. some of them are very small and some are still younger than me( around 4-5 yr younger than me).
but the thing is im 20 and now they r 15 or 16 somthing. they cant reach me ik yes.
but when i was 15 and when they were 10 i did things more than them, comparatively when they r in their 15 right now.
they cant do things that what i have done in their age when i was in.
so, i think my aunties obviously see the difference.
but when i feel any bad about my aunties, i remember, omg why i think that way, they used to love me, cuddle me, make me happy and you know.
but it happened when i was 5 or 6.
they got married.
they have babies.
they have families.
they have changed.
they do not care about me like they used to be.
so thats okay. thats totally okay.
but, the thing is,
this is bothering me. when they hate me, do things against me, say things against me as just jokes, put that irrelevant talks on my face, i cant ignore it. i think as thats fine. they love me, these economy and these things have changed them. if not they can treat me as they used to be.
but now i see, is this real? is this the truth?
idk, im so tired. these relationships are very tired. they dont enjoy anything.
what i have to think about them?
they changed with the time. and i should do also.
they changed their love for me. i should do also.
cuz, that economy crysis and bad things didnt only happen for them? right. i also experienced them. so?
i have come out from their traditional expectations.
they loved me. but they dont love me now. so,
I SHOULD PROTECT MYSELF.