Dear Diary,
i feel like my teenage life went smoothly plus roughly. i know i have some traits built up bcz of past traumas. i have experienced different kind of mental status in different time lines.
i have learnt one thing, if i suffer today for any reason, it can be literally anything, its a plan of god's. accept it. if i cant change anything at the moment when it happens, dont complain anything to anybody but i should try to stay calm,positive and energetic.
cuz everything happens for reason. and, i dont regret or worry about what happened with me from 2020 to 2024. i know its a huge academic fall down but, i learnt a lot.
and, i as a 20yr old,
i earn ( i do a part time job and manage my own expenses.)
i do a diploma ( to stay strong with mental health and learning psychology)
i take care of my physical health ( i hit the gym 3 times in a week)
i study for my exams to get into med school (daily 13 hr average)
i do a charity once in a month
i care about my appearance a bit more than earlier.
i started to go solo shopping and cafe hauntings cuz wanna romanticize the life i hv.
but probably from next year, before my med school start,
i wanna move out from my home and rent a tiny place to live alone.
wanna learn finance and commerce side cuz idk anything abt that topics.
will have my diploma graduation
wanna completely change my wardrobe and switch to a new style.
find a partner.( i hv never hd a relationship with anyone- some ppl wonder and dont believe by saying that im pretty )
and idk how i will feel when i read these diary notes in my 3rd decade in life.