recaping the thing...

Dear Diary,

Help. I was thinking about is it obvious when people like? like there's signal or not? because i feel like i am not deserved to loved. idk from childhood maybe family problems and everything. like liking as in crush kinda thing yk. Dear diary, as i joined the university, idk i felt was i was being stared at and whenever i look at them they look away. lmao. idk why i was thinking like it's been like almost 3 years ig as i started ny uni. then i told oks of my closest friend and she was like ohhhh.our class mostly play badmintiom whenever we have time and even bunking the classes. she came to my university too to pick me up and then she told me "girl he looks and talk at you differently" But like idk i feel like it's same? then after that we had trip and we all were kinda drunk. we played truth and dare. there someone asked if he liked my benchmate and he was like yeah, sure. i mean you all kinda good. i dont remember that much to be honest then i felt like oh maybe he was looking at her not me during the first semester. and i was like wait she rarely came in first semester???  idk then after felt like maybe he likes me yk? like as my freind said his tone and way of looking is different  around me so maybe i kinda notice. idk.bro i think i am drunk or sth bc wtf i am talking about. lmao or maybe i am just desperate to know if someone could like me. goodnight diary.👍🏼😔