Dear Diary, I no longer want to live... death sounds better... there is no pain... no sorrow. no crying. its better than life. My best friend was the only one who cared about my life... she doesnt want me to kill myself.. it hurts.. but i gives me peace... at least i know someone will miss me. but im still considering it. I want to die! i dont want to live anymore! I KNOW I SOUND CRAZY! but i cant continue. If this will change my life... its worth it.. maybe my parents will notice how it all made me feel. But i think about my brtoher... what will they say? how will he handle it? is this ok? is it actually worth all the pain?