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I've always dreamt of having someone in my life romantically but sometimes, I'm also glad that I am not in a relationship.
Ever since I was 15 I've learn the truth that love is barely a real thing anymore these days. Nowadays it's only about lust and beauty, personality don't even matter anymore. And beauty nowadays are fake but apparently guys like that even more than natural beauty.
When I was 15 I still remember that time when my mom was crying and arguing with my dad loudly that I can hear them from upstairs. At first I couldn't catch what they we're saying but as I continue to listen, all the words that my mom was rambling about is my dad's infidelity towards their marriage. I've never expected my dad to do something like that ever in my life and starting from then, I started hating him. I even started to not considered him as my father of how ashamed I was with him. And ever since that day tension was increasing between my parents and they would often argue and me and my siblings would often hear my mom crying.
And then one day my mom confessed and tell me that the bitch that my dad had been cheating on her with shared the same name as me. And she asked me for my consent to change my name, and yes of course I agree for my mom's comfort and also I refuse to have the same name as that whore. And my mom would also sometimes ramble about her feelings to me and she would compare her with that stupid bitch. She even showed a picture of that bitch to me but honestly, I almost laugh on how pathetic the situation is. The bitch wasn't even as beautiful as my mom and she is a whole lot less than my mom. How can my mom even compare herself to her?! I though at least, the person my dad would cheat on my mom with was like a cute model or something but no! She looks like she's stuck in 2016 or something, she had those ugly ass big lip fillers and those unnatural cheekbones and fucking thick ugly ass eyebrows with thick makeup covering her whole ass face. And her body looks so unnatural with her fake bbl and plastic boobs! She's tryna reach those baddie looks but its not even close to a baddie. One needle and it's over for her. She looks like those unmarried cafeteria lady with thick ass makeup for no reason. My mom was so pathetic to wanna be like her so bad. If she decided to look like her I would be so embarrassed for her. And my dad is even more pathetic to find someone else when he have my mom with him. The fact that my dad is so lucky my mom actually pick him when A BUNCH of men wanted her in the past and even right now and in the end he decided to cheat on her??? And he is so pathetic to think that woman wants him. They only want his money because he is rich. That bitch was also using his money and thats the only reason why she wants him. The fact that my dad had even tried to flirt with some woman on facebook even after a few years of their marriage but they all just rejected him. He was so pathetic it makes me laugh. And I feel bad for my mom to dump her loyal ex boyfriend just because he was clingy and end up with my asshole dad that just couldn't keep it in his pants. And thanks to my dad genes I'm ugly.