anybody in here,
it was a youtube channel where my professor uploads about high marks achievers' talks in our college's website.
there was a one speech delivered by a boy who is not even that much good looking but very tall. even there are dozens of speeches with boys who are really handsome, i hv been liking to a one boy.and the fun part is even we are same aged, in a same big class, we havnt seen each other yet. trust me idk why. whether its a love or attraction or crush. as i havent been with male guys, its really natural my atraction towards boys.but this hits different i think. tbh i think there are some reasons.
1. he is tall
2.he is from another part of the state and stayed at a hostelin city to come college.
3.he is down to earth.
4.he is a master of math.
5.he is genius with knowledge as well as his inner qualities which appears while he talks
6.he is one of a guy who really matches with my standards what i am looking for.
7.he has a nice smile lol
8.and im genuinely worrying about finding a bf, cuz i know later it takes can affected to my thought which it is, i cant go for lots of guys, i wanna marry my first love till the end.
so im thinking to have a very pure boy, who hasnt a love affair before. i feel like that guy doesnt have but i cant make sure.
so im gonna take this serious and i really want him.
9.i feel something deep from him
everybody says love happens naturally and it cant has any rules and it should be genuine but, when it comes to i really wanna match those parts.
when i went to my physical class, i saw him for the second time.he was tall but thin.but i like his appearance. idk why when i went near to him,i didnt feel that heart beat which my friend told me if i have any feelings that thing might be happen. ( i seen him for the first time when i attended physically for that class. i just only have a shadow image captured with his skin colour,shape of the face and his uniform.)
and another story is, coincidentally yesterday when i get on the bus he was sitting there. OMG CAN YOU REALLY BELIEVE THIS? HE WAS SITTING AT A WINDOW SEAT, THERE WAS ANOTHER SPACE NEXT TO HIM BUT I COULDNT identified him.even identified im not sure whether i sit next to him or not.
anyways firstly i wanna become a friend of him.
wish me luck! and you think am i wrong at this point and this isnt love? yeah i know this isnt love but i wanna make a love with that person.yet the love hasnt grow a lot.