Dear Diary, And still, I’ll keep writing a goodnight wish for someone who will never be by my side.
Because it brings warmth.
It shows there’s still a connection.
Without it, it’s hard to fall asleep…
So even if I can’t send those words directly, even if there’s no one left to send them to—I still write them here. I send them silently through my thoughts. To the one I love.
What if he needs my goodnight wish just as much as I need his…
What if he’s waiting too, lying awake—unable to sleep without it, just like me?
So…
Good night to you, my silent star,
I kiss your soul from where you are.
My heart wraps ’round you, soft and tight—
You’re not alone. Sleep well tonight☺️
I send these words on moonlight’s glow,
With all the love you’ll never know.
Though I can’t be there in the light—
In thought, I’m with you every night…
..…
And even if your heart’s not mine,
If thoughts of me don’t cross your mind,
What can I do, where can I run—
When hearts obey no will, not one?
So I just love you.., quiet, deep,
In waking hours and in sleep…
No vows, no claims — just silent cries,
A love that lives, but slowly dies…😞
I meant to write of gentle things,
But sorrow clipped my fragile wings…
I’ll never love with such despair,
To beg for chains, yet find none there.
And so I yearn to lose it all,
For you, to be your captive, fall!..
To give my soul, my heart, my breath,
To drown in you, in love’s own death…
I’d trade my freedom for your kiss,
To live in chains, a twisted bliss…
Sick love…
My heart, a shadow of despair,
Craving your touch, yet unaware…
For in this pain, I’d give it all,..
But you’d never catch me when I fall…
The pain runs deep, the scars won’t heal,
But I’ll move on, though it feels unreal.
You chose another, and so must I,
But inside, I’ll forever cry.
Now, at two in the night, so deep,
I must forget the wounds I keep.
What does it matter, the words I speak,
When love still haunts me, cold and weak?..