My first love

Dear Diary, 

My first love ig Gavin. I loved that boy and now that we're no longer together everything has somehow managed to work out. That boy was my everything I could have ever asked for. But I now realize that if I would have stayed with him I probably wouldn't be here. I probably would have continued to do stupid things. I honestly don't know why I loved him. He never loved me the way I thought he did. He mostly wanted me for things. He probably only wanted to brag about having a girlfriend. But I also wasn't really popular. I was just an average 9th grader. After we broke up the first time we didn't talk for a few months and then we got back together. After a few months passed he ghosted me. He never texted me back after he went to Florida to visit his family. I haven't talked to him since my birthday of 2024.