Today was an unpleasant day because of the weather—cloudy and cold. I didn’t get much sleep. The day followed the usual routine: gym, grocery store, cooking. No work today, so I went to the post office to pick up a package and played Assassin’s Creed for a bit.
Reading isn’t working for me today. Neither are games. It frustrates me to keep running into glitches in everyday things, and my eyes hurt from the strain. On top of that, I’m feeling emotionally overwhelmed. Smoked a pack, bought a new one.
At least the evening is finally here. And tomorrow is a new day—hopefully a better one. In the morning, I have some errands to run, then home for a bit, and then back out again in the afternoon… Maybe I’ll share how it all went in the evening, or maybe I won’t.
I want things to be good for everyone, and I strive for that—including for myself. So, I let myself relax, took another dose of valerian for the night, and I’ll hope the cumulative effect kicks in.
My throat is scratchy—it’s the smoking. But everyone has their flaws. Mine are the inability to control my emotions and the urge to cling to what smoking is associated with. Honestly, it’s not the act itself that matters, but the thoughts that come with it.
In any case… I wish you and myself a peaceful night and deep, restful dreams, hoping that sleep will bring some relief and help me feel better tomorrow.
I’m glad to have you