Dear Star,
I was watching *another* video on vampires; this time it was about how bad Diabolic Lovers apparently is. To be honest with you it just made me want to watch it now ?? It said the guys are sadistic, angsty as hell, and honestly Laito looks really good to me right now. Just to clarify I was NEVER an Edward Cullen girl- ew, he too nice. Which is a wild line to be honest.
This is a wild thing to be thinking about on Christmas I just realised. I'd say merry Christmas but honestly I don't care ? My family never celebrated it for the last all years of my life. This year we did though. I think it's because my mom still can't find a job and she's starting to feel useless... I feel bad for her. :(
Back to the topic at hand. I know the vampire thing ended in like 2010 but my ass wi-fi and lack of social media account keeps me 20 years behind. I'm lying... I deleted social media because no one talked to me !! Me getting excited at notifications then seeing it's a system update hurt me too much. But I act nonchalant and outdoorsy to not be pitied by the other guys at school... It may be because I'm ovulating right now, but they're so alluring ! The idea of getting *busy* in real life feels very weird to me, like genitals are so ugly how to people like looking at them? But getting punctured by sharp canines while being caressed gently. The pain of the vampire kiss and the gentleness of the loving embrace all in one sounds like a heady combo. But let me not get too thirsty. It's just that the imagery is so beautiful too. The cold atmosphere and darkness of it is such a divine thing compared to the bright sun and heat I'm dealing with right now. I'll tell you now, Christmas during Summer it NOT good. You know what is? Being in a quite room. There are not florescent light but warm, dim flickering candles, illuminating *him*. Tall, slim, tragically beautiful vampire caress your neck, smiling with his beautiful pearl teeth, looking deep into your eyes whether his are a endless abyss black, or a dangerous blood red, lean in slowly to suck— anyways.
Merry Christmas I guess. Am I excited for the next year? Absolutely not !! o(≧口≦)o
Talk to you later,
Blossom.