Dear Diary,
Hi, I am not good yaar, I am not feeling good at this moment.
I feel so inferior many times. Like I don't look good at all, I am fat and ugly, no proper teeth, not a proper face structure, I don't look.good at all.
I was living in a delusion, or most of the times I know I don't look good but sometimes I feel that the camera angle is not correct but I should look good from every angle not from any specific angle.
I don't know how to do makeup properly, I don't know how to apply eyeliner, I don't know how to pose, like how to smile or how much I have to lift and tilt my face, I don't know anything and above that I am so fat... Samyak's family was right, I don't look good at all. I don't know how to smile properly.
I hope I would transform but how to change the looks,how can I change my face which is ugly itself.
Today, out of all 30 people, only 6 people got certificate from CM, I was one of them but my photo did not get shortlisted coz I wasn't wearing formals like those 3 people and my picture was not a good or might have been looking ugly in the picture to be featured on official handles and I didn't get clicked pictures in my phone. So, I don't have pictures of today.
So, yaa that's all, dear diary, atleast you don't get bored or frustrated with my rants. Okay bye...