Dear Diary,
"Der lagi lekin, maine ab hai jeena sikh liya, jaise bhi ho din maine ab hai jeena sikh liya."
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Hi Diary, Above lines are from a song from Zindagi na milega dobara currently playing on Spotify.
What am I doing with myself, just lying lazy, I don't sleep, I need to get out of this phase soon or maybe today midnight. I need to get back to life.
At present, at this moment, I wish there was any service that you can book someone from urban company to motivate you to take a bath or help you with that, they will give you shower, then get your ready, blow dry and iron your hair, do your makeup, feed you the food. I wish 😂.
Anyways, mood is like this only like the song playing on loop.
I am getting super late but me being me...still procrastinating, but after this note I will get up and go straight to the washroom and get a shower but uske k baad ka process is tiring.
Sometime back, today, I was watching a Pakistani drama and it showed some physical abuse from a man to his wife and I was quite affected by the scene. Then, that day also I watched Do Patti usme bhi same thing, like first the guy is something else and after marriage that side pops up. This is only thing I have been feared always, it's not like I have seen such thing somewhere but Idk I had this thing in mind since a long time. Anyways, why I am writing this.
Aaj Chhath hai, I have plans to go to Mahadev Ghat but I can only make it if I get up and get ready for the office right now. Also, idk why my mum keeps me asking office nai gayi, office ja rahi ho, and I try to avoid the question, I will tell them once they are here...
I am hungry too, I have asked Divya to prepare lunch for me for that also...I need to go...I am done with myself...I need to be little disciplined and strict with myself...but kaise hoga.
Koi nai! Bye!