Dear Diary,
Hi! Idk what to write, I am just sad, very sad. Mujhe na kahin na kahin feeling thi...ki kuch aisa hi hoga... meri life...how can it be so normal, jab tak disasters na ho kaise chalega, phle bahut time se I wasn't ready for marriage, fir obviously papa ne kisi ka profile share kiya...I really liked him but I was very vocal this time so that kuch bhi issues na aaye...but how can this happen to me...meri life easily sort ho jaye...not possible.
Thanks to my parents also, they mess up things everytime, I can't fight with them for everything... atleast they should also think...I just do so many things just for the sake of their happiness...but I feel ki apni zindagi kabhi bhi ji hi nai paungi... coz I am a kite not a bird or maybe a bird in a golden cage.
I hate this marriage setup and all...mere ghar walon bahut jaldi thi na ki November me engagement, March me shaadi toh kara le...dhundh le ladka... kyunki ab toh sab decided hi hai...March me shaadi krna hai bas ladka dhundhna hai...
And I am really done with everything...har baar ka same thing...
Ab mai soch li hu...mera koi judgement hi nahi hoga...na mai kisi se baat krne ko ready hongi... sabkuch decide kr le...ye log uske baad...I will yes for whoever they will choose.
I am not afraid of marrying any right or wrong person, this is the only way to get out of this vicious cycle.
I think I need to look out for a job in another city, so that I can get out of all these things.