Dear Diary,
Been few weeks since I last wrote a diary. That is because I was very tired and done with the toxic environment around me. I don't even try anymore. Hope is just lost. I just have no idea what is going on and where this going. I can't pay attention is class, but I do get good sleep because I am getting tired lately. I think I should stop blaming other people for this and accept that it is me, who is stopping myself from trying.
I cannot find a good reason to keep going. I don't find things that I used to find fun, fun anymore. I just hate being around people more, as I told you, I am filled with toxic people in life, that does not include my friends. My "real" friends are getting more supportive and helpful to me. I help them too. My "just friends" are the most toxic people I know; they are stopping me from going ahead. My parents are not supportive at all to me, which is also holding me back from trying to celebrate small efforts and successes.
I cannot focus anymore; I am just having a hard time finding thigs fun. The only good things that have gotten good are supportive friends and appreciating the nature around me. I don't have anything else to say, so this is where it ends. If I find something good to write about, I will maybe write.