Dear Diary,
It was mom's birthday, we celebrated it one day early. I got her an A4 sized Al-Quran with tajweed and a customized Quran bookmark with her name engraved on it. She wasn't really fazed when she got it, no thank you or whatever. I can't tell if she liked it. Moms react differently or maybe it's because I'm not the favorite, who knows.
My friend sent me a surprising text early this morning, telling me about her mom's situation. Her mom fell into coma while going on a pilgrimage to Mecca and is now being warded there, I still haven't gotten the entire story from her yet. Just read Yaseen for her mom and family. I can't even imagine how she feels right now, may things will be made easier for them.
As for me..
I'm struggling with that suffocating feeling again and it's triggering harmful & intrusive thoughts. Trying to distract myself from it as much as I can.