February 13, 2024

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Dear Diary,


It was mom's birthday, we celebrated it one day early. I got her an A4 sized Al-Quran with tajweed and a customized Quran bookmark with her name engraved on it. She wasn't really fazed when she got it, no thank you or whatever. I can't tell if she liked it. Moms react differently or maybe it's because I'm not the favorite, who knows. 


My friend sent me a surprising text early this morning, telling me about her mom's situation. Her mom fell into coma while going on a pilgrimage to Mecca and is now being warded there, I still haven't gotten the entire story from her yet. Just read Yaseen for her mom and family. I can't even imagine how she feels right now, may things will be made easier for them.


As for me..


I'm struggling with that suffocating feeling again and it's triggering harmful & intrusive thoughts. Trying to distract myself from it as much as I can. 



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Sky✓
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WingFeb 22, 2024

I feel very bad for you and your friends, hope this gets better soon...

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SkyFeb 14, 2024

hi sunshine, thanks for your thoughts and prayers <3

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SunshineFeb 13, 2024

Hello Sky, I'm sorry about your mom... I had/still have some troubles understanding mine too. I'm not the favorite child either but I learnt to ignore that. In my case, I always say whenever there is something that hurts me that her terrible childhood is te problem. Her feelings and needs were always repressed this is why, now, she doesn't know how to express herself. Praying for you+your friend and her mother.

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