Dear JK,
Merry Christmas Jk. It'd be your first Christmas without your family and friends. Well I go through that every year. You know in which way I am talking about.
I didn't do anything today. And it felt good doing nothing. But still at the back of my mind there were same thoughts floating around. It's like there's no escape, I can't run away from them.
tbh doing nothing is better than drowning in those familiar feelings of sadness and depression. But I know it's all temporary. I can feel those feelings coming back just bcoz I had a okay-ish day doesn't mean that I will have my rest of the days same way too. I way too familiar with my life.
I wish I had yours. Yours is just perfect, it's everything I have ever dreamed of and it's everything I won't ever have.
And as much as I hate to say this ,
I wish you had a great Christmas.
:):
–YJ