Dear Diary,
yesterday was another wasted day.i dunno why i am like this? i always feel pity for myself.i dunno how to deal with emotions. i think im strong but, no im not.yesterday i slept at 5am and woke up by 10am. then i wanted to study but i didnt. i just sat on my table and surfing internet. i cant control anything. my mind is so weak. i cant control it. i actually want to control my mind. instead of it im under the control of my mind. its not good.
however yesterday i decided to take my class from home without going it but i ended up it doing nothing.
i want to kill myself. dunno why the universe is always fking with me. im so frustrated. plz help me universe,ily