Dear Weird Diary, There is this boy..his name is Shane, omg even his name makes me smile honestly, I met him last year when i switched schools. Surprise, i switched schools again. we have not messaged for a while when i first left, but omg he messaged ME FIRST! Yesterday he was talking to me and asked who i liked and i said no one, he went off about how i probably liked these people and went off naming his friends, like i wanted to just say, "no silly, its you. i love you." but ofc i didn't. i was jokingly saying how i know he has a crush at the school and he said he did, omg when i tell you my heart felt like it dropped 4 beats. Like i love YOU, why can i not just spit it out. i have never cared what i did or people thought of me, but i do when im with him. sometimes he takes hours to respond.. and i respond in 1.6 seconds lol. i have always steered clear of love, bc I'm afraid of rejection or the leaving after they are bored of me. im sorry, ill stop writing for now lol.