hate me

Dear Diary,

mother said shut it or i'll crack your skull open with my stick...and my cousin was like-don't take it seriously the meaner the parents are the more they care...is that true? saying to your child she can't do anything you'll just be a lowly housewife, you have no future, your useless, if only i gave birth to a boy, your a failure its better to marry you off ...it hurts i hate it i don't like this its not my fault im weak at studying im trying this is too much for me am i really that worthless? it was my periods and i was unable to help and she really just started saying this again