Dear Diary,
I feel really unhappy right now. Everyday is the same - I feel like a robot and not just because of that. I’m not opening up to anyone, I feel lonely but it’s my fault because I just withdraw from people and I don’t even know why. I think I just do it to please my girlfriend but I withdraw from her too. That’s where it gets even more complicated. She’s a really good girl and I’m lucky to have her but at the same time, we don’t have that much in common and I desperately wish we had more. A lot of the times I don’t even know what to say to her or have anything to say to her. I wish I had anyone in my life that would share my hobbies with me but I don’t know how to even meet new people right now - everything’s just work, gym, repeat and I feel my mental health deteriorating by the day. I need a big change in my life and I need it desperately. I feel like I waste away all of my free time on my phone chasing dopamine from tiktok or whatever because i don’t know what else to do. I’m going to fix this starting today. I’m getting out of bed after writing this and going for a walk. I’m going to keep my phone away from me when I wake up and before bed.