Dear Diary,
I feel like I'm waiting for someone who doesn't care about me or want me anymore if they ever really even did to begin with. I'd gotten nonstop reassurance that she was happy and that I was doing everything right but then one day it was like a switch was flipped that made me worthless to her.
"I adore you and I really wanna be with you, but I don't want to mess up anything wrong with your haed. Not being ready for something can be a big deal. I'm a lot of extra stress."
Here I am ready, despite what she did in the beginning and she is nowhere to be found.
Tell me why I'm waiting for someone who doesn't give a fuck about me.