Dear Diary, I just wanted this entry something positive.
I have to go to company trip to a beautiful historical city.
Sounds terrible. Company trip in 2023?! I am a gen Z!!
Old men in company party I went in June were terrible. Not all of them but mostly the ceo and the second top. I think they have done some illegal things for women at work. Idk I just assumed so based on what I’ve heard from other people at work and I myself felt at the party.
I don’t want to think about the trip. But I can not let go.
One of my senpai at work… she’s same years old as me, told me she won’t go if I won’t go. Then we planned to be absent together. But she later told me that we’d better not to do that based on what she heard from her senpais.
So we need to survive sacrificing our emotions and weekend.
But good thing is i am feeling we can talk and hopefully enjoy the trip together.
I think this is a high wall to connect with my higher self. Higher self does not mean things like universe or something here. It’s like to be like a monk.
I want to be cool person like old actress who is respected by a lot of people. Or maybe like Emma Watson.
Now I don’t like a part of me who is angry and sensitive to small things in sentences other said to me.
I want to write something positive on my entry #444
Because it’s spiritual number.