Hi, It is basically 6th Aug what I am writing about.
It was raining when I went outside in the evening, it feels good getting drench, having tea, roaming here n there.
Right now the only purpose of writing this journal is that I am not feeling good. Idk what has happened to me but something is bothering me and I am not able to figure it out.
There can be many reasons or anyone of them, maybe work, money, co-working space, marriage or Idk what.
I just don't know, today I am feeling lonely.
Anyways, I enjoyed during evening.
I even told Aman that I will always remember you when I will think of Raipur. You have been throughout my journey in Raipur, I mean I guess till now I have spent around 3-4years in Raipur and most of the year 2023 , he is the part of the daily routine, so yup as we are working together, usually we hang out together, do things together, so whenever I will think of this City, there will be you.
Hum jis bhi shehar me jaate hain wahan koi na koi mil jaata hai jo apki life ka imp part ban jaata hai jiske sath aap sabse jada time spend krte ho...for any reason...how strange, shehar ko yaad kro toh log bhi yaad aa jate hain, jaise ki bilaspur ko yaad krte hi, college, usse bhi jada Veer aur etc chize linked hain, so year 2021 Raipur, I have different story. And so on...
Anyways, I talked to Yash today but I don't get any vibe from him, he wants to marry me but I don't get any feeling like that, I don't even want to talk to him so I usually ignore his calls.
I don't know what kind of person I want, I guess I don't want to get married itself.
I don't know what's happening to me pr what I should do, I don't know what to do for every different things going in my life, I don't know what do I want...
I know that I want to move ahead.
Idk why I feel like this these days...I mean I am feeling anxious or lost...
I am hungry, going to have dinner at 12:30am