July 09, 2023

Dear ghost,

Even if we are alone, shining more than the moon, will the night forgive us? But it is only me, blending in the darkness. In the end, I want to be comforted. I want to be more free. I want to walk around the world. I just want to be found. 

This is suffocating me but it was me who tightend the tie. I can not quit yet. I do not want to be impulsive because I have paid the price for it before. This time, I want to think carefully. Dozen of times. So that I do not suffer more. I do not want to die a little everyday.

I know why they shine bright, it's because they are living. Living more than the breath I take. They are the radiant essence of life.

Yours even as I fear to be.