There are days that I doubt about everything and negative thoughts swarm in my head, flooding my brain, then I sit and cry questioning every memories I had.
I wish I could tell you every little thing that goes on inside my mind, to every thought and worry that turns my stomach upside down. But when we get into it, and I accidentally step on a landmine, that’s when a mere thought becomes the reality I fear like a trigger tempting me to set everything on fire.
To regain my sanity and be indifferent. To live like an empty shell because being alive sometimes makes me feel like my sadness can go on forever in a never-ending timeline of useless and endless thoughts that may very well kill me.
But then some days when I hear ‘their’ laughter that fills every corner of the house, makes me want to hold on to see what the future holds.
It’s hard sometimes but they help me get through every single day.