Dear Diary,
I am not sure why every relationship I start, do not work out. I have been with him for 7 months now and he lastly makes me feel like I ahve never meant anything to him. The expression on his face makes me feel uncomfortable. Any time he looks at me, he is trying to find something against me and I feel shitty. I do not even know why I am staying in these relationship. Maybe I am just so fed up of ending things and starting all over again and I am just trying my best to make it longer. He says I am so wrong and messed up and everything about me is just not right. But I have been doing fucking everythingn to save this relationship and he is not even doing the bare minimum. I do not even know what I feel. I feel numb. Sometimes I feel like I am just so used to this sad feeling that I do not let myself get out of it and it is all my fault. Stating today I will be sharing my life and updates. Maybe this will help me let go if the toxic people in my life and find myself. Hope I can find help in myself.
Best,
F