February 09, 2023

Dear Diary,

I had a panic attack recently, at the moment I didn’t realise what it was i just thought that i was dying. It sucked, at that point i wanted to live, but i saw my parents right besides me, and i gave them a smile, that even if i die at least they would see me go away happy. Truth is, im alive now but i regret not dying that day, even if i wouldn’t have lived, I would be asleep and numb to all these emotions , makes me wonder if i made the right call being hospitalised, instead i should have just head into the darkness. Whatever, i guess i just have to make the most of my life, resolve my feelings, and give myself my best till death greets me,