Dear Diary,
I visited Vizag this week. I planned the trip with my parents so that they can also feel relax for a while. We stayed at one of my Father's Friend's place. Everything was going well until they keep on raising the topic of my marriage, something which I don't like talking about. My father felt bad about the way I had put my points. The other day while talking with uncle's mother, when she asked about my caste so that she can find a groom, I told I want a guy from lower caste. Why my tongue sleeps like this? Everyone felt so embarrassed. My parents scolded a little. Later at night in the train, my father talked with me regarding this and told me how he felt embarrassed. Till now I'm feeling guilty in every second. I lost all my soberness at once, which is very important for me. Why everytime I make my parents down. Sometimes, i feel I'm the glitch in the matrix. I should die soon so that atleast the persons related to me should not feel embarrassed.