January 18, 2023

 

Dear Diary,


Today I was going to ask her why she's still wearing our long distance couples bracelet. I was so certain that she was but I'm thinking maybe there are other reasons why it still says she's connected to it.


I actually did ask.. sort of. I asked "Did you mean to stay connected or were you unaware?", I fully intended for her to see my message but 30-40 minutes went by and it gave me too much time to second guess whether this was a good idea or not. I ended up deleting the message and just saying "sorry nvm" after because unfortunately it shows the other person when you deleted a message even if you haven't seen it. 


Once she opened my snap and saw "nvm sorry"

she just left a quick "ok" and said nothing more. 


That being said I find this to be a rather dry response, felt almost hostile in a way and its making me wonder if my conclusion that she was still wearing the bracelet was actually wrong despite the clues given. Even if it says connected her phone could simply be near wherever she left the bracelet, whether that be on her desk, dresser, etc.. Its quite impossible to tell. Her response is making me doubt it now because if she is mad at me, hates me, or feels anything negative towards me at all its hard to imagine she'd be wearing the bracelet while feeling that way towards me. 


However... one thing I noticed is when I woke up today it said she was disconnected from it and it didn't say reconnected until she must've got home from school. I'm guessing a few things:


1.) If she is wearing it, she takes it off before she goes to school.


2.) She saw that mine said disconnected (due to me charging it last night) and decided to take hers off.


3.) The most likely idea, its simply in her room and her phone connects to it when she gets home. 


Its hard to know for sure whats going on but as time passes, certain things will stay consistent and give me a more accurate idea of whats going on. Specific things I'm looking for are:


1.) When it goes on and offline. Its hard to know if mine showing up offline to her swayed whether she wears it or not so now that its fully charged I can wear it 24/7 and see if anything has changed. 



2.) If it simply connects to her phone when she gets home and shes not wearing it, then eventually the battery will die and it won't show up as connected anymore which will give me a clear answer there. 


3.) If her battery drops eventually it should show me and so I'll be checking for that too. 


I could just ask her if she still wears it but for now I don't want anything I say or do impact her current decisions. She won't talk to me so I don't know what she's feeling so seeing what she does while we aren't talking to the best of my ability is all I can do. I guess I'm just gonna play the wait game, see what happens with the bracelets, see if she ever texts me, or see if anything else changes. 


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