Dear Diary, I managed to motivate myself to start job hunting again. But somehow that positive feeling was shrieked and gone soon. Then I got very familiar feeling again. Being mentally unstable and vulnerable. Something is wrong again. Words to make myself less and less confident. Negative thoughts about my future. So I tried the pill for the first time. I prescribed that pills for when I get anxiety. He said it would make me sleepy. Yes it’s working. I’m sleepy lol
She implied that we could be twin souls or something in a playful but “kinda trying to be romantic” way. I already told her that my little sister was born with Down syndrome. But not sure if she remembers. She even told me she wants me to live long so that she can have me around longer. Sounds like a marriage proposal lol
I am not sure what is going on. It can be just friendship thing but I don’t think she tells these things for everyone.
I am not sure if…if she want to be in a relationship with me. I can’t be in a relationship with her while I have depression problems. But if (huge if) she want to I need to tell her about my mental health problems… She knows psychology so that would be more awkward to me.