December 14, 2022 becoming an non-existent

 

Dear Diary, 

I lost interest in people. I hate being around people. I'm not sad. But I'm not happy either. I think my heart expired. I lost my happiness. Not because of someone. But because of me. I feel sleepy all the time. I feel the cold outside. And I feel the heat of my body. The inner heat. I'm sick. I can laugh. But I'm not able to be happy. I'm tired of smiling. I'm tired of letting new people in my life. Even as friends. I can't let anyone come near me. I don't want to.. I'm no more excited. Being alone is addictive. I feel inner peace. Someone told me, you get the outcome only if you put some effort. Make efforts to talk with people. Then they'll talk to you. But I said,'I don't want to make effort. I don't have any energy to make an effort.' I just don't want an output from people. It's good to be alone. I don't want to you to see me as a pitiful fellow. Don't concern about me. I'm good on my own. Not a depressed one. But just an energy lost one. :)




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