November 16, 2022: Apparently Panda is lost.

So funny.

Last night, right before I was about to shut my eyes, I sat upright with a jolt. There was something I had to do. I had to tell Panda that he doesn't get to treat me this way. 

And that's precisely what I did. Via voicenotes. I told him how it was not okay for him to just forget I ever existed after telling me he liked me.

He was a little lost at first. Then to my utter surprise, my phone rang. In the middle of the night. It was Panda. (Sheesh I almost wrote his name and then realized that you guys know him as Panda hahahahah)

He was a mess. All over the place. Apparently he hasn't had time to breathe in forever. But that's not the worst part. His dear ex has been hounding him and making his life living hell months after they went their separate ways. She'd asked him to return the ring she'd given to him once upon time. Poor dude was already shattered. And this girl is playing around with the shards. He's blocked the girl from every channel possible, but she wiggled in via his friends. 

I don't believe anything that comes out of a man's mouth until the facts are corroborated with a reliable source or if there's some other way to check for credibility. But I didn't have the heart to think that in that very moment. His voice was breaking as he was trying his best to keep himself together. He sounded like he would break and scatter into a million pieces, and he was afraid he wouldn't have the capacity to put himself back in one piece.

"I'll call you everyday starting tomorrow," he said, tears probably spilling from his eyes.

I told him I didn't want to be another responsibility or task on his daily check list. I felt a little guilty for that outburst. I consoled him, told him all will be okay. 

Huh. I don't know what to think. I think I'll just be there for him and see what happens.

Shit I'm that school girl who has this crush on the cool emo dude aren't I. And here I am offering him a  shoulder to cry on.

That's alright I guess.

Did I tell you I've been in talks with a few music dude lately? Well, you'll have to stick around to find out how that's going.