November 08, 2022 •4•

 

Hm maybe this isnt a bad idea...
Im going to write everyday..
Just saying my thoughts and what happend today
So yea welcome ig

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12.40 ish
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Its cold .. i have 2 sweathers on but it doesnt seem to be enough..
The last fem days havent been so good but its okay.. right? 
Sigh 
Dont worry its gonna be like all those other times its just a time thats not ur whole life
Right??

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14.40 ish
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I got an new replacement teacher for mech and hes fine
Hes a student and hasnt given lessons yet so hes new but hes pretty good for being new i must say :)
(Lil joke for the tech ppl, he replacement_teacher³ ) 

Eleen (one of my classmates) came back!

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16.16
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I came back from school, on the way to home i also stopped at the bakery to get some white bread since we where out of white bread, i hate the fact that i only like white bread.. :(
I hate being a picky eater, i dont like anything healthy and even unhealthy stuff is beginning to taste nasty.. :/

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16.39
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I dropped a roll of tape on my toe 😭
I alway hurt my toes in some way, i call it the curse of Tia hahah
Imma play some genshin now :)

One of the only things that can make me happy rn :^


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16.50

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I am so happy that my teachers are acting wierd and not goving me a shit load of homework and test for now 

Im not made for the school system, its not that im dump or i cant do anything , i can even say im bit smarter than the average student in my school its that i cannot study very well and homework its pretty hard to 

Especially exams i cannot prop so much info into my head its a terrible system because after the exams i just forget everything anyways, hm this reminds me of how shitty the school system is.. i fuxking hate it

Its so bad and there is so much proof and studies than can agree with me 

But ofc those fuxking politicians dont fuxking care they only care about power and money, the ones that control my country are ass

But enough of me complaining.. 


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17.21

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I forgot to add this but my brother said he put some choco on my clothing (on the back of my bh) and when i took a foto for behind so see if it was true i instantly regretted it i look so bad from the back, i look so fat to.. i though i was still okay but i look so fat from the back.. :(


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17.46

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Well luckily my dad finally after like forever he made some decent food so i still ate like normal, i try to not get myself in an ed rabbit hole but sometimes its hard yk


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18.29

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Sigh 
Im mentality so tired..

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21.30
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I`ve played genshin until now (3 hours)
I explored sumeru a bit more , im happy that this game exist and that it is free ,its my happy place :)


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22.34

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I think it’s time for me to go to sleep now

The last 2 days I haven’t slept well since I went to sleep after midnight making me have less than 7 hours of sleep which is not good ofc and I also want to catch up on it so I’m not sleepy in class

Why is it hard for me to brush my teeth? It’s such a simple task yet to difficult for to get myself to do it.. I have to do it I don’t want my dentists to hammer on me again that I need to brush my teeth I don’t have the mental energy to handle that especially when my mom gets involved to…

She told this that day ‘why can’t u just brush ur teeth I don’t want to be the family that doesn’t brush their teeth and then goes to the hospital to beg them for help!’ sigh this just makes me mad to hear I didn’t go to the hospital bc I didn’t brush my teeth and I had holes in them or something no! I went there cuz my teeth are a mess and my mouth is to small for all my teeth plus those 2 teeth that grew together that had to be removed (they where in my teeth flesh btw (excuse my bad English)) 

Sigh and then ofc she has to downtalk my brother again, his teeth also didn’t fit in his mouth but the main problem was that he didn’t brush and that bc our mental health is ass and my parents fail to see that she has a hell of depressed kids mainly cuz her stoepit husband, my father just isn’t a good father and she doesn’t want to fucking tell ,,hey dude seek some help cuz it’s effecting you and everyone around you,,

Sigh but Alr al least they got little miss perfect that is my sister the more responsible one, the one who has good grades, the one who kan keep her shit together eventho she had a bad childhood like the rest of us

I love her but.. I’m so jealous of her.. :(


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22.53

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I’m gonna go to sleep now

Bye bye … how should I call y’all?

Maybe something with birds or cats..?

Hm idk yet


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23.36

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I can’t sleep :(

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