One of the only things that can make me happy rn :^
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16.50
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I am so happy that my teachers are acting wierd and not goving me a shit load of homework and test for now
Im not made for the school system, its not that im dump or i cant do anything , i can even say im bit smarter than the average student in my school its that i cannot study very well and homework its pretty hard to
Especially exams i cannot prop so much info into my head its a terrible system because after the exams i just forget everything anyways, hm this reminds me of how shitty the school system is.. i fuxking hate it
Its so bad and there is so much proof and studies than can agree with me
But ofc those fuxking politicians dont fuxking care they only care about power and money, the ones that control my country are ass
But enough of me complaining..
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17.21
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I forgot to add this but my brother said he put some choco on my clothing (on the back of my bh) and when i took a foto for behind so see if it was true i instantly regretted it i look so bad from the back, i look so fat to.. i though i was still okay but i look so fat from the back.. :(
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17.46
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Well luckily my dad finally after like forever he made some decent food so i still ate like normal, i try to not get myself in an ed rabbit hole but sometimes its hard yk
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18.29
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22.34
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I think it’s time for me to go to sleep now
The last 2 days I haven’t slept well since I went to sleep after midnight making me have less than 7 hours of sleep which is not good ofc and I also want to catch up on it so I’m not sleepy in class
Why is it hard for me to brush my teeth? It’s such a simple task yet to difficult for to get myself to do it.. I have to do it I don’t want my dentists to hammer on me again that I need to brush my teeth I don’t have the mental energy to handle that especially when my mom gets involved to…
She told this that day ‘why can’t u just brush ur teeth I don’t want to be the family that doesn’t brush their teeth and then goes to the hospital to beg them for help!’ sigh this just makes me mad to hear I didn’t go to the hospital bc I didn’t brush my teeth and I had holes in them or something no! I went there cuz my teeth are a mess and my mouth is to small for all my teeth plus those 2 teeth that grew together that had to be removed (they where in my teeth flesh btw (excuse my bad English))
Sigh and then ofc she has to downtalk my brother again, his teeth also didn’t fit in his mouth but the main problem was that he didn’t brush and that bc our mental health is ass and my parents fail to see that she has a hell of depressed kids mainly cuz her stoepit husband, my father just isn’t a good father and she doesn’t want to fucking tell ,,hey dude seek some help cuz it’s effecting you and everyone around you,,
Sigh but Alr al least they got little miss perfect that is my sister the more responsible one, the one who has good grades, the one who kan keep her shit together eventho she had a bad childhood like the rest of us
I love her but.. I’m so jealous of her.. :(
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22.53
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I’m gonna go to sleep now
Bye bye … how should I call y’all?
Maybe something with birds or cats..?
Hm idk yet
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23.36
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I can’t sleep :(