Dear Diary, I went to the library again and read the volume 2 and borrowed vol. 3 because tomorrow the library will be closed.
The author wrote we think we must be perfectly healthy but he thinks we don’t have to think like that. Well… I thought that was inspirational but I don’t get it now… well I guess it’s because I have been thinking I am not healthy enough since the beginning of my teen age year. And I am unconsciously insecure about myself that doesn’t make a real progress there. And he wrote it and I read it. Then I realized how being healthy had been in my mind for so long and I might be tired of it. Well I assume he doesn’t mean we should let ills eat us up. I took the word like we dont need to worry about it when we are doing somewhat okay.
And also he spared pages to think about volunteering and monk’s begging. I have to admit but I find myself feeling anger when I thought I was being nice to strangers but they have nothing to say to me. He wrote it feels better if we can think in Buddhism way. Which is thinking giving something is what we do to make ourselves feel better about ourselves so WE rather should say “thank you for letting me doing this for you.” Well, he also wrote it’s a little difficult to think that way.
I love that book so far. And I love the fact that the book isn’t that old.