Dear Diary,
Hi, It's 6:24 pm but I want to write now only before the day ends.
I want to write about my wishes now, like a few of the wishes.
Actually I am waiting for Shobha meanwhile she is coming I can write.
Never thought exes will be beneficial for this long time ;D.
I have a strong urge to visit Varanasi and experience Ganga arti, I have visited Banaras many times but that time Banaras was not this Banaras, like it's so different and beautiful today and I was younger those days.
I have so strong urge since I visited Narmada Arti in Jabalpur, Gwari ghat, it was just a feeling that I may not able to express in words properly and above that it was my solo trip.
I may fulfill my wish of seeing Ganga arti at Varanasi maybe before my birthday. Fingers crossed.
I feel that if a place is even just 5 kms away, you only get to go to the place when you are destined for it otherwise for some or other reason you can't go to that places.
Secondly, I want to do solo trips, I always wanted to go on solo trips, I wish someday when I have sufficient money and by sufficient money I mean "my own money" not Papa's or Ankur's , my own money so that I can do solo trips, I wish I don't get too late for this.
I feel solo trips will heal me completely, like it will cure my anxiety and all.
I want to go to retreat programs like I came across one today on Instagram but dates were again not in my favour, I want to go to Vipassana also which Arihant suggested but its just that I need someone to look after everything in my absence and yes I want to attend such programs at different places I mean somewhere far from my city so that I can meet different people.
Anyways I have these three wishes for now.
Its Sharad Purnima today ( full moon and that too with Amrit Varsha), so I came to the terrace to observe the moon and a click a picture of it.
I went to movie with mumma, we watched the movie ate alot during interval.
"Goodbye" was the movie name, movie seemed longer than its usual time bcoz it wasn't that gripping but I knew this from before, I went because I like such movies,the stories, it was a simple movie again, they tried to fill some humor in it but it had a serious message, life lessons to learn from it.
We leave behind our parents by getting busy and ahead in life and take them for granted and when suddenly one day they leave us we don't know how to be okay without them, we had so much left to share with them and many more.
I took mummy alongwith me coz Papa doesn't like watching movies at cinema halls so I want mum to experience all she missed in these years and have memories.
Well, I want to write more but Shobha has arrived so got to go.
I am a deep thinker I guess, also I want to write about that I am fine now I guess I am moving on or moved on, I want to write about healing and grieving stages. I think I am in acceptance stage.
Okay bye
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