October 04, 2022 Life is Deep shit.

Dear Diary,

Hi, I have mixed feelings about everything, a lot of things are going at home, I feel so idk what do I feel, above that yesterday he called but why didn't he told me about his marriage when he wanted to conversation to last long but I hung up he should have told me or in the first place he should not call me and when he called he should have told me about the date and all.

Anyways, I got to know about this now but apart from that many things are going at home too which is making me sad , I haven't spent any good day at home this time. I want to write about the things but I don't want to write and feel all the things again.

I want some positivity and hope in my life. , why can't I find someone to share everything? I am so restless at the moment. I don't know what to do?

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Hii again, after 2hrs, its 0:45 and I wasn't feeling good so today I opened that talk to strangers website and got connected to someone good in the first chat only, he was really good coz 90% people there are creep, he was somewhat similar to me but the chat got disconnected coz at that time my internet dropped and I tried to find him again but didn't got connected to him for some minutes so I gave up, it's just that the chat got disconnected in the middle of conversation without any goodbyes. But it's okay, he told me his name Vikram someone living in Bangalore, I didn't tell my name but maybe he will read the novel I suggested and if he likes it he will remember me for that maybe.