I think maybe the reason why my depression is really bad rn is because of the isolation, I’m in my happiest state of mind when surrounded by people. So school is my escape. I talk to all my friends but it’s not just one group, it’s multiple people, I have my friends from my class and my friends form the other group and then another friend from another group AND I also have tutorings which last like 4 hours? Which is fun cause I get to do with my friends and that is such a good distraction for me, but I’ve been stuck in this depressing mindset and cycle for only a couple weeks not even that long but in my head I’ve lost track of time and it feels like I’ve been feeling like this for a looong time so idk if going to school now will be enough.
I’m really lost rn, I don’t truly know who I am and I have no motivation to get better or honestly for anything.
My mind is empty almost everyday and my emotions are all over the place.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I honestly stopped trying, I just let it hit me like a ton of bricks, I don’t really care anymore.
Lately I’ve been finding comfort in feeling like this, the cutting is comforting, it’s a really sad but yet somehow warm hug…
Idk how to get better…