Honestly I lack empathy for others. For example with my family the only person I would truly miss and do not wanna loose is my mom but everyone else? Nah I dont really care :( like my grandma and grandpa? I don’t feel anything for them like there’s no connection there, and my aunt definitely no connection and it’s honestly worse cause I’ve actually tried to have a connection with her but she pushes me away so I just stopped trying cause I’ve tried for YEARS and my mom says she actually does love me but how can I love someone back who treats me like shit? Like how do you expect me to feel any love for you when you don’t even say I love you cause she actually doesn’t say it and she doesn’t ask me how I’ve been or how things are and she judges everything in my life and judges my body and emotional state all the time so I repeat again how the fuck do you expect to feel any love for you? I don’t and its so hard too because she pisses me off so much and makes me cry so much that I just can’t like I can’t take it. I honestly feel happy when she finally leaves and the thought of seeing her actually ruins my mood and my day and I just ignore her now all the time. I honestly only have a short list of people I actually love and the only family member there is my mom and my best friend and everyone else??? I just like em but I don’t truly love them because I see myself carrying on with my life without them but my mom and my best friend? Nah I would honestly kill myself if I lost them. I can’t live without them.