Disaster struck again

I tried cutting myself again and I did, I really did try to hold back but sadly I gave in. I stopped cutting but I keep looking at my arm and I don’t know why but I feel the urge to do it again, I know it’s bad and I shouldn’t but I can’t help it I just keep thinking to myself I must keep doing it!

I’ve calmed down now and I ate something and now I’m watching Disney movies, I feel a bit better but Im still thinking about doing it but I’ve got everything under control so far.