September 07, 2022

 

Dear Diary,

"अगर वो पूछ लें हम से

कि किस बात का गम है

तो फिर किस बात का गम हो

अगर वो पूछ लें हम से

अगर वो पूछ लें हम से

कि कहां रहते हो शामों में

तो फिर शामों में कहां हम हो 

अगर वो पूछ लें हम से


Hi,
Dear diary "September is just being Sadtember" for me. 
As soon as September entered, I just went sad and you know why then, I fell ill.
But today was a better day comparitvely, nothing sort of good things happened to me today still I am happy in my own space.
I don't need anyone to take care of me, I am sufficient to take care of myself and be happy on my own.

Today morning, when Suresh uncle,the cleaner came to me he came to me coz he was injured and wanted some financial help, I felt nice realising that he knows almost everyone in the society still he chose to come to me as he may have faith that I won't say no or something like that. I helped him more than he asked. It feels more than okay that I am able to help someone in any way.

Later on I cooked food today as I don't feel like eating from past many days I hardly eat once a day so I was better from rest of the days I mean the health wise so I cooked chicken keema for the dinner for my brother as well coz he was having his flight at 9, I fed Kritartha also, he is like a family to my brother and we also don't consider him as outsider actually we don't consider anyone as outsider, everyone just gets along easily.
Although I haven't eaten what I have cooked till now I am not feeling hungry.
When I go downstairs and see the elderly couple taking care of each other, I really feel good, Idk why but it brings a smile on my face. There are a lot of old aged couples in our society and when in the evening they come for the arti as one is too weak to balance himself the other person just keep holding his hand for the support and balance, they have spent their entire lives with each other maybe happily so that they have reached this stage, just completing each other.
Dear diary, I know when we look for love we don't get it, love comes to you when you aren't even thinking about it or you just don't want it, it just comes silently. I feel Idk if I will ever get the kind of love I want, you know na once I love someone,I love them completely, with my full heart and mind,  just want something like that not at this point but yes sooner or later.
Dear diary, Bhai is not at home again for 2-3days and it sucks living alone these days, I mean I have started recovering now only and I don't want to go back to those things.

Anyways I was fine today or I should say I was feeling good today. There was peace ✌️.
Okay bye 😘

The sky looked beautiful and the moon 🌝
Just listening music 🎶 now.

 

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