Dear Diary,
I am feeling very low Today, morning was okay but since afternoon I am quite low, I am also falling sick and this early cycle is adding fuel to it.
I feel like crying, it's really hurting me now, I know I want something but I won't get it and getting to know about the things I wasn't aware of didn't made me feel that bad but yaa the consequences will definitely hurt me, people are hiding things from me so that I don't walk out of things. But ya I have little disappointment that I wasn't aware of the things that were happening.
But I have decided now I need to to walk out, yup I need to disappear as saying goodbye and then closing things isn't going to happen soon as it happened many times and I am still there maybe better than yesterday but still there.
I don't know why it is hurting so much, am I the only one experiencing this, doesn't it affects the another person. I have just decided to do so, now it's enough I can't keep crying for the same thing every 15 days.
I am in little dilemma of leaving things which were helping me but I had to otherwise we will still have some connection left and Idk if I will be fine or not, I will let go of the startup which we planned it's time to let things go for my good atleast I think so coz now I have to give charge to my mind
To change my mood I went downstairs to attend Ganesha Puja but when I came back I am still in that mood only. I have decided to to stop doing certain things, I have decided not to say goodbye, the only solution is blocking the person everywhere anyways I know he wouldn't even try contacting me after that.
Okay diary, enough talking of him, I just don't want to fall sick but I can feel it that I am not well physically and mentally.
Little Ganesha ji is the one which I had in my home.