Dear Diary,
This week has given me quite a story.
You know last night, i had almost decided that I am going to spend the whole night, just sitting in the dark. It would have been lonngg night, thank god, I could finally sleep. Memories from Hampta pass worked again.
I spent the last 3 days, understanding the underlying details of web3 and how a cryptocurrency works and what software engineers do to build and launch a crypto currency. It's so different than what I imagined I would be doing, off all the new things, I thought web3 is just the bullshit, however, I couldn't help and got soooooo supper impressed by = the protocol labs guy. We have already said things like, you are just incredible, you are THE MAN, you are the best =D to each other. 😅😅 (Don't get me wrong, Its first time, i am meeting guys who are soooo nice and warm. I am just trying to keep up 😅😅). Finally, i even generated a crypto thing, submitted PRs to a crypto project.
When learning about this whole thing, I was very excited, going deep into it i realized there is a whole new world out there, people seem very serious about this stuff and it reminded me of what Feynman said beautifully - "Nearly everything is really interesting if you go into it deep enough".
This brings me to the next thing.
Yesterday, I almost, not almost, I actually proposed Komal in the most lousiest way one can do it. And I even confessed to her, that it is lousy and that I wanted to do it in a better way, but the situation was such that I just had to. I texted her, and I proposed to her in a WhatsApp message. 😅😅😅.
I told you, Lousy. I am not very proud of it. And that's why I even deleted the message after she SAW it. 😅😅.
Before, thinking of doing it, i spent hours straight, Hours, just thinking about it, just one thing, whether what i am about to do is right or not. I thought about everyone involved in this, everyone who can be affected by this, and i thought about myself, do I really want it. And what if i don't do it. After hours of thinking when i still could not arrive at any decision, I said to myself, let's do it without thinking this time. See what life has for me, let life do it's magic this time and I'll just see. So i imagined how i would call mama and tell them that i am ready to get married now, and i want to marry her. And all this thinking gave me a biiiiig headache, and i couldn't sleep.
But wait for it, this is not all. Today she messaged me, that she is sorry. Because she is agreeing to marry the other guy whom she met yesterday, she is leaving this decision on her family. Tomorrow they'll be getting engaged.
But wait for it. I haven't told you about who Komal is yet.
Well, it's a long story, we had a long time to us. Really long time. She liked me, i think she did. We mostly spoke on phone, for hours, i would tell her all the science things and she seemed to listen to them very patiently. I thought she liked science too. I even played the book of questions with her. I think i liked her, i was trying to picture her in my future sometimes. Caffe could have been with her and sometimes we'd be cooking together and from my salary, i would be giving her pocket money every month to have fun in life =D 😅.
Just yesterday, I told myself one more thing. YOU NEVER KNOW LIFE. ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN.
And, now today, I am not even sad. I saw videos of Budhdha in the day, It said, that there is no mind itself and no mirror of mind also, it's only imaginary 😅😅.
That's not all, i saw the 3 stories of my life video of steve jobs again. And I wrote the longest email of my life to Luke today.
And tomorrow, I am going to fight with the Indian customs department for justice, and fight against corruption. 👏👏.
Yes, one more thing. Ruchi is pregnant. So happy for her. But she won't be here for the next 3 months now, We are all going to miss her 😅. Without her, the gang is very boring. No parties, no roaming around. But after that i think she'll be even more busy, always running after the baby, feeding it and sending it to sleep.
I think the good days of gang are mostly over now already. It was sudden 😢.
Good long week, And, I still have days left.
Later!
Goodnight!
❤️❤️
--panda--