Dear Diary, i have been upset for a couple days but i act like everythings fine because i know that it's people that care about me and don't wana see me sad but i haven't tol anybody about this but i will say this my best friend ruby who is a year older than me died a couple days ago and the woman was the best thing that could ever happen to me.
like i mean if me and my bf got into a fight she wuld be there for me no mater whatthe problem she was there like when my father promised shit like to hang out with me he never showed so obviously i needed someone to be with me and she came threw when nobody else would so obviously im in really deep fucking shit i mis that nosey, fun, friendly, crazy, overprotective girl that i called my bestie and my sister i mis her to death but imma see this crazy fun girl in a bit so she better fucking wait for me or its on but there's something else to this....i have a Nintendo I use to play games and shit so im on it just now and my cousin wants it and i keep saying no so they have to ask someone else for it and I have to give it up I have nobody to talk to but why? Why can't I ever have anything or anyone for myself like I get that I might sound selfish or like a brat but I'm speaking for myself from my perspective so oh well I guess life's a bitch and hells real wo goodnight I'm gonna go cry myself to sleep...