Dear Diary,
Some days it just gets hard to fight off all the negativity my mind creates for itself. I’m trying really hard not to let my mind get to me. I’m filled with rage, sadness, and resentment today. Trying to keep positive is exhausting. A part of me wonders if I will ever be able to let it go or if I should just end everything. Maybe by re-inventing myself … again. Yeah right, like that will solve anything. I will still be miserable. I know I’m loved but I constantly question it because of the lack of love I have for myself. I know at the end of the day things are ok and everything is “fine” but it gets so hard to believe when your mind constantly convinces yourself otherwise. I hate the fact that this will be a constant battle for me. I hate how it affects those around me. I just want to end it all and kms because no matter what of anything I receive i will never be satisfied w/ life or with myself because I will always feel like something is missing. Nothing will ever be enough to fill this never ending void.