Dear Diary,
I seem to have a unique personality in a bad way. I think differently, act, talk, express, sympathize, and understand differently than other people and it seems to have a negative impact on my relationship.
She can say she's happy with us all she wants but I wouldn't believe it for a second until I feel that she is happy with me because up to this point I believe she isn't. She's a very emotional person and that means she needs an emotional sympathetic partner who can help her, calm her down and support her in a way I don't seem to be able to. I wish I could hold her to sleep while playing with her hair to help her relax but I can't do that in a long distance relationship. She's over a thousand miles away so I'm completely useless. Physical affection is my love language and how am I supposed to give that to her when shes that far away?
Its only a matter of time before she leaves me when someone she likes and can actually see and touch comes into the picture, her reasoning like the rest of the people that leave will probably be along the lines of "don't act like you were happy either, now you don't have to deal with all my problems, now you can go be with someone that deserves you, now you can go get a better girl" and plenty other bullshit.