Dear Diary, i bought some sunflowers yesterday. i saw them in the store and i fell in love with their bright yellow petals, i couldn’t keep my mind off them even after i left so i had to go back and get them after doing some research on how to care for them. i think they got too much sun today though, i was under the impression that they need full sun but i think the heat here is suffocating them. their petals wilted a little bit, which obviously isn’t ideal, but they’re supposedly pretty sturdy. i just need to experiment with placement and see which area suits them best.
on another note, i haven’t spoken to him in about a week and i’m frustrated. we’re supposed to still be friends yet he seems to have no interest in acting like friends. i’ve put a lot of effort into trying to communicate with him but every conversation we had he was distant, even when the topic was innocuous. i don’t tend to stay places i don’t feel welcome, and i don’t feel welcome to be his friend anymore. i’m tired of being the only one interested in interacting. i wish if he was tired of me he would say it with his chest. from this point forward i will exclusively be matching his energy. whatever he wants from our friendship he needs to bring to the table himself if he wants me to reciprocate. i’m tired of trying to understand men. every man i know is so emotionally distant and it pisses me off to no end.