Dear Diary,
Ever noticed that a panic attack is not just a mentally pain, it is a physical pain as well ? It feels like a burning feeling in your chest and like someone is chocking you. I trying to meditate but it doesn’t worked for me. All I can do is to wait until it’s over but after surviving another "panic attack season" I still feel like sh*t and all I can do is to wait until I can finally fall asleep.
Yes, I am willing to change, I am willing to recover and I am willing to become successful and I know that I am my worst and only energy. I know recovery is a long journey and this scares me sometimes. I can’t remember how it feels like living without depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I don’t know how it feels like to be truly happy. Getting to know how it feels is my goal but it also scares me because it will be completely new and I don’t know how to handle it.