Dear Diary, i made a really good smoothie and it’s made me feel good to drink it. i’ve lost my appetite the past week or so but i find it begrudgingly coming back. my relationship with food is complicated, but i think i wouldn’t feel so negatively about eating if i actually ate healthy foods that made me feel good. that’s why i like smoothies, i can add a lot of healthy stuff and the fruits make it sweet so i’m more inclined to drink it.
i feel myself getting back in the groove of things, my talk with ann yesterday has really made me feel better. she told me i should text anslee since we haven’t talked in like over a month, and she was right. talking to anslee has made me feel a lot better.
my common milkweed is almost as tall as my little sister, i think that’s so cool. my aquatic milkweed has a second sprout that is almost as tall as the first. my aster looks like it’s preparing to bloom many more flowers soon. while she isn’t exactly tall she has an abundance of sprouts and each one of them promise many blooms. my plants are one of the only things that keep me sane some days. though to be honest some days they’re what’s driving me insane.
i think i’ve decided that i’m going to search for a job instead of going to school just yet. i want to start at the local technical college to see if i can save money by getting a scholarship to a more prestigious school. i think if i got work in the field of horticulture then it would give me a head start in knowledge before i start classes, and will give me some much needed experience. i’m eager to learn and it was a real bummer to learn that i have to wait over a year, but i can be diligent with my time instead of being a lump on a log until then. the first step is to get my drivers license as soon as my car gets back from the mechanic, and then we’ll go from there.