Dear Diary, i plan to hang out with my friends tomorrow and hopefully drink. i need to socialize to get my mind off these feelings, part of me hopes i do something stupid that i normally wouldn’t do. if not to take my mind off my current debacle then to make me repulsed by physical touch again. i can only hope i don’t say anything too weird.
i don’t know if it will make me feel better or worse but i’m open to either.